Saturday, January 2, 2010

Looking back on 2009

Placing 2009 in retrospect is basically easy, it was a pleasant year with no real tragedies or exocentric things happening and now I am voicing it, it almost sounds boring as if it just happened. But…..it wasn’t that bad.

· The first part of the year flew by with no extremities I had turned 55 and was very laid back.
· Had a few ins and outs to the doctors/hospital but nothing I couldn’t handle, thank goodness
· It was a really great summer with lots of bbqs and outdoor eating.
· I visited England after 17 years and met up with old school friends
· Met a guy on that trip that boosted my 55year olds ego; when he wanted more, I was strong enough to explained, “I had all the friends in my life than I needed and could handle” Hard but true and simply where I am at.
· Supported my youngest daughter in a TV competition.




· Had an offer to sing in south of France, it fell through!
· Cuts at work but I am still hanging in there
· Damion and Zerrne's last year of study, Zerrne did a crash course! well done guys!
· Ex turned 60
· Had a new grandson is born in March the 5th of March which is the same date as my son, his uncle! Real cool! So that makes it a total of four grand kids and four children!
· Oh I turn 56!!

Goodness, not a bad year. With all my blood thinners, blood pressure and cholesterol medicines I am doing just fine. Hot sweats are less; I noticed it appears in more weather and if I eat dairy products! Bummer I love dairy!
Still this year I will do more zumba lesson, exercise, relax and enjoy more time with my hubby!

Anyway it's my daugter's birthday today SHE'S 30!! and we are going out to celebrate! I wanted to take a nap as I can't do the long night hours anymore...............but now it's too late as I am being picked up in an hour!!!

Happy birthday darling...........




Welcome 2010!!

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Happy new year!

2010!
Happy new year!
Waow 2010, it looks different, it feels different and if I think about it long enough, the mystery it holds make water spring in my mouth as though I had just tasted something citrus...............

I had the best "old year's night" that I could ever have asked for.
I spent it in the company of my daughter, her partner and their baby girl.
That was the most relaxing, cleansing, spiritual and liberating evening ever.

Each year I would go though the whole 'getting ready' ritual thing by doing all the domestic things so my house feels ready for a new start. This year I was more on top of it than ever. Administration was all done, no clothes left to iron, our closet looked like a shop hahaha love that! Everywhere was as I wanted it to be in our space. The only thing left was to set a bath with lovely scents, I have a new flavour, 'lavender tea tree geranium' by L'Occitane! mmmmm talk about relaxing, anyway That form of cleansing was not to be tonight. I was about to experience a special bath of the mind and soul with my daughter!

I hadn't planned to spend the night at my daughter's but my husband came up with the idea, he so enjoys his sons-in-law, he calls each one 'his favourite son-in-law' soooo cute!

Having gone to bed at 2:15 this morning, I woke by myself minuets before six, I knew that because I woke and whilst lying there thinking "man I woke up and it's still dark......I wonder what time it was" then I heard the house clock strike 6:00am.

I tried falling back to sleep and realize I couldn't.
Now we all know just how creative and sharp our minds are at that time in the morning, when only YOU are awake. My mind began reflecting as I tried to make clear what I had dreamt about.
I won't relate the dream but it triggered my tread of thought for a while, trying to dismiss the I thoughts I reflected on being at my daughter's place.......I wished I could have stayed in bed and scribble all I was thinking done without 'getting up!!'
I created an entire page in my blog lying right there; at 7:00ish I got up went to the loo, and turned on the computer.

I had not been in this space since for ages!!
I was energize by my baby girl last night! I wanted to save those feelings.

I haven't been blogging for sooo many reasons and blogging for the sake of it was just not me.
Now I am back.....I am sitting here thinking it's all too much to put into words....now....right now.

Considering my guy is in our bed, asleep and I am behind the computer.....mmmmmmm something doesn't compute I know.
But last night, the end of 2009 was magic for me 'for us' as I fell asleep wrapped in his arms, in our freshly made bed, feeling very secure as we affirmed just how strong our loves is, I felt blessed, loved and extremely fortunate that this man loves ME as he does, that I have lived long enough to experience my children as adults and be able to love and appreciated each of them individually, to be able to to share the difference and the likeness of my baby girl, with her in it's pureness, honesty, genuineness and unshielded way we did.
I had the best "old year's night" ever.
I will talk more about this later, maybe....yes I will! I think..........


Anyway it's still dark soo I am going to sneak back in bed to grab a last cuddle before my sweetheart wakes up.......I just wanted to make a start whist I was ready to start blogging this year.
Thank you God for a loving family!
2010 is off on a great start!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

The disappearance of the girl


All you ladies out there that may be feeling devastated because your man cannot deal with your fat, or he has gone because “you are Not the girl he married”
Well here is the news, you are not!!
That GIRL and rightly said, girl, has gone, she left a long time ago!
In fact she was only around for a few precious years, that thin body, tight all over, firm breasts, ….insecurities acne…shyness…..my goodness, she slipped by without my even knowing she was leaving.

Man was I sick!! My poor body didn’t know what had hit it, it took on some major changes in that month of August 1973, when my first daughter was conceived, and my body was on a roller-coater of imbalanced hormones and chemical changes.
Mixing and fixing preparing me for motherhood.
I had ‘thrush’ …yep thrush!! and I was soooo young and green I had no idea what was happening to me.
Sure, I was having loads of fun experiencing my new found sex life that year.
I had left home, on my eighteenth birthday and it was fun fun fun sex sex sex, I was my own woman and I had me a man!
I had never had sex with anyone else than with my baby’s dad, so when I was feeling crazy from my ‘itch’, I was sure I had VD!! And if I had ‘caught’ it must have been because of HIM, ‘cause I had not been with anyone else!!
I would itch until I was sooo sore.
Venereal disease were big when I was a girl, and as scary as aids is for most, everyone was getting some thing, from someone, so that made a girl scared to do anything with anyone!
At 18 I was considered, old to be experiencing my first sexual encounter, and now a year and a half later, to have VD!! I was scared and angry.

Not being able to take it any more I went to a special clinic, on my own, where you were only known as a number, that way I could conceal my identity.
After I was examined by the doctor, he explained I didn’t have VD. I was soooo happy to hear that, then he asked, me if I knew I was expecting.
Expecting? Expecting what??!!
Aaaahmmm a baby??
I was blown away, there I was three months pregnant and I didn’t even know it!!
AlI knew was that I was feeling bad!! Itching awfully and all it was all because my hormones were taking on a change, preparing me for motherhood!

Young and fresh and fit!!??!



It is so amazing how the hormone system works.

The endocrine glands system make chemicals called hormones and pass them straight into the bloodstream. And the hormones can be thought of as chemical messages. They communicate with the body and bring about all our “changes’
Look at it this way, the hormone is a ‘key’, and it will only act on a part of the body if it ‘fits’ and if the key (the hormone) fits the lock (on the cell wall of the organ) then it will work.
Ha ha! I got! So when there is no more growth, repairs, sexual drive, eating dis-order then you can say my Pituitary gland is NOT working by balancing the hormones or the hormones (the keys) are lost of …or don’t fit anymore....hhhmmmm

Here are some facts


The glands of the endocrine system include:
Pituitary gland - is inside the brain. It oversees the other glands and keeps hormone levels in check.
It can bring about a change in hormone production somewhere else in the system by releasing its own ‘stimulating’ hormones. Such an important pea size gland.
The pituitary gland is also connected to the nervous system via part of the brain called the hypothalamus.
Thyroid gland - is inside the throat. It controls the rate of metabolism.
Parathyroid gland - is inside the throat. It controls the level of calcium in the bloodstream.
Adrenal glands - are on top of each kidney. They make a number of different hormones, such as adrenaline and cortisol in times of stress, and sex hormones.
• Pancreas - an organ of digestion, which is inside the abdomen. It makes insulin, which controls the amount of sugar in the bloodstream.
• Ovaries - are inside the female pelvis. They make female sex hormones like estrogen.

Examples of exocrine glands that secrete straight to a target site, via ducts or tubes are called exocrine glands.
Some examples include:
• Salivary glands
• Sweat glands
• Sebaceous glands.
Common problems
some common problems of the endocrine system include:
• Diabetes - too much sugar in the blood caused by problems with insulin production.
• Premenstrual tension - symptoms include bloating, breast tenderness and mood swings.
• Thyroid problems - when the gland is overactive (hyperthyroidism) or under active (hypothyroidism).
Things to remember
• Endocrine glands secrete hormones straight into the bloodstream.
• Hormones help to control many body functions, such as growth, repair and reproduction.
• The pituitary gland inside the brain oversees the endocrine system.

So when you were that young and beautiful girl, with that prefect body (even though you didn’t think so at the time, you were either too fat or too thin, not enough boobs or far too much) you were going through so much changes back then, changes your poor brain couldn’t cope with.

You were shooting out in all areas of you body, hair was growing where you really didn’t care for them to be and then the monthly disaster!! That left you feeling dreadfully, sick and nauseous every month!!

You were able to understand more complex matters but dealing with your mood swings was unbearable for you and those around you.

Making your own choices seemed perfect, you knew what you liked and disliked but the worries of dealing with boys were sooo confusing, the peer pressure at school and all the social issues.
What to do, what not to do and very rarely choosing for what you really wanted, yep that was the first time we expeirenced that emotional roller coaster.
Remember feeling sooo all alone, even though everyone was going through it too, well here we are again, on a similar roller coater only hopefully we have our wisdom to guide us through it, some thing we didn't have when we were young, fresh and so called, fit. The traumas in our heads are still the same. The battle with the hormones part II.
Oh and not to forget Oprah!! Ahahaha she is in her 50’s now so the whole world will now hear about ‘MENOPAUSE" and how to deal with it :-D

Monday, May 18, 2009

Celebrate my FAT!!!

If the menopausal years are 35-55 then I could be coming to an end with all my ‘bad’ feelings!!!
Can’t wait!!
I just discovered I am not suppose to be dieting!! Can you believe that!! When everyone claim, thin! Diet! I knew it!! All the ‘Sonja Bakker’s’ diet are not good for me!! I really felt bad when I dieted and last year I decided never to do it again. I would feel soooo bad, almost ill! Sure I am supose to stay trim by working out, 30mins per day. Fine….but also not excessively.
I have been reading a passage from “menopausal years, the wise woman’s way” by Susun S. Weed and there it says,

“Gain up to a pound a year for ten years!! Thin women have more hot flashes and altogether more difficult menopause than heavier women. Fat cells produce estrone, a kind of estrogen. (If you won’t let yourself gain ten pounds, at least STOP TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT!! Dieting decreases bone mass and weakens the heart.)”
I couldn’t believe it!! I felt it all along!! Dieting is bad for the menopausal women!
Hey I wonder is that why I am having all these heart related problems lately? hhmmm

Saturday, May 16, 2009

a quote

I woke this morning, with a worried feeling because of it, my day was very slow in starting; but all in all it turned out to be a good day!!

But I an too tired to relate it.

I will end with a quote:-


"Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight."

Benjamin Franklin
US author, diplomat, inventor, physicist, politician, & printer (1706 - 1790)

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Should I be worried that my cholesterol level is 5.1?

Generally the following will apply to anyone wanting to bring down a borderline or high cholesterol reading:

Low saturated fat diet, high in fiber, avoid fried foods and salt and limit dairy and meat and prawns.
The best diet would be oily and white fish, eggs plus vegetarian foods. Eggs are fine as there is at present no association with an increased risk of HD. Cholesterol levels should be in the range 3.5 - 5.1.

It is important not to go below 3.5 as cholesterol is important to the body as can be seen in the enclosed information. Foods high in potassium would be beneficial. Avoiding stress, particularly prolonged stress is important.

Most people would also benefit from a multi vitamin and mineral without iron and copper, and an antioxidant that contains A, C, E
So 5.1 is good!
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