I went to the sport school last night and oh my goodness I could just about manage to do 15 minuets trot on the tread-mill, 10 minuets on the cross-trainer and I went towards the bikes for the cycling and thought! STUFF IT!!! I can’t.
My energy was so low, I know it is said that exercising wakes up your happy hormones but saaaarry it doesn’t work with me!
Got home showered and went to bed. I am sooo not happy when I feel this way, already to cry, so I decide the best thing to do is sleep it away. Unlike most of my crones I love to sleep and can never get enough. It was a good job I went to bed early because after lying in bed with my partner cupped as a fetus to my back, I slowly got to sleep. There are times I just want to sleep ALONE! Bless him.
I knew it was going to be a bad night, when my evenings are soooo unproductive and I lack energy, it usually means I am not well, not optimal. I haven’t been for weeks, but last night I was tossing and turning. At one point I thought I was about to have one of my famous ‘attack’ where my heart would race and I would wake up my guy to support me. Fortunately for him I stayed calm and controlled it and drifted back to sleep.
The alarm woke me waaay too early for my feelings, I cuddled up to hubby for my morning hug and dragged myself out to the bathroom.
Nearly 60, surely all these stupid hormones should have calm down by now so I could be me again. What is me any way it has been sooo long I am not sure what my natural feelings are anymore. I would be lovely to wake and think "it’s a beautiful day, the sun is shining and I feel good, nothings gonna stop me now"
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